I feel like I spent my whole life missing one place or another. But I reached a point where I dunno what it is that I'm actually longing for. When I went to Korea, I missed South Carolina. When I moved to Virginia, I missed Korea. Right now I miss VA. The funny thing is my life in SC, VA or Korea were nowhere near perfect. I was really really shy back in the SC days-- was too timid to even talk to my former kindergarten teacher. same goes to my dark days of only speaking two words per day during elementary school ( in korea).... life wasn't exactly fly in virginia... I mean life was good for the most part and I really loved college and all.. but it was nowhere near perfect...  maybe I miss being part of something and awesome friends I made along the way?

I long for that perfect life in my dreams... and I'm afraid that I might be missing out because I'm not at a certain place... But that's prolly not how things work because God is everywhere.

my problem is that I can think and think for hours but suck at putting those thoughts into action. What good is it talking about changing the world when you don't take steps in doing so? quite a passive way to live rather. you have to earn things I figure... instead of waiting life to just happen.

of course I also  have this this identity crisis thing going on.

This is what I probably should be thinking instead: God will be with you wherever you go. and you are first and foremost a child of God...

there is gotta be a purpose for my life.. should stop wasting my life but don't know how

maybe I just want a boyfriend because, obviously, having a boyfriend will save me from my otherwise lonely life....... or maybe a car/// a red sports car would be very nice..... when will I grow up??

I've been feeling lately that I am not really passionate about things I say I am passionate for. I like the image of me being passionate for something, but a lot of times, I don't care enough. The interest is not strong enough.

So my goal for today is to try to be more passionate about things.

Upon Diana's request, I am updating my blog.

Life Update: I  talked to myself today while washing dishes. I think this pretty much sums it all up. Rapidly entering into, or already in, the land of boredom, minimal physical & mental activities, and confusion; a dull lackluster life I would say. I don't have a boyfriend yet( with emphasis on the last word). Because, of course, your life is not complete without a boyfriend; sike

Walk with God: It's going somewhere. I am starting to read the book of Genesis; it's pretty interesting so far. I must have been in an ADD-mood the last time I read Genesis because I'm constantly finding out new information.

Travel Plans: I must GO to England. Don't care if I get broke by the time I get there. My first year suitemate is in Derby, England right now. And I soooooooooooooooooooooooo wanna visit!!!!! Well, I have to find my missing passport first. London is my first and last love.

Music and Literature: Besides talking to myself, I started to sing as well. I mostly make up the song as I sing; I still sound off-tune though. I sometimes read children's book out loud too. Yesterday, I read parts of "The Wolf and the Seven Kids". I make up my own dance moves too.

Getting Fit: My sister told me the other day that I got fat. So, I did some muscle work-out yesterday. I'm planning to walk to the train station tomorrow( instead of taking the bus).

Book Reading: Still reading short stories by O. Henry. Gonna buy books by J.D. Salinger tomorrow.

Future Plans: No clue. Wherever God takes me.